Mourning someday we will have to experience this, I always thought there were certain natural rules like children don't die before their parents. Well I realized in life there is no order to things when I lost a sibling. My family was not the only one grieving his friends were too, I remember one of his friends putting together a video of him running a race during a sports day event at his high school with the music of Enya playing in the background, it was beautiful. Another I knew well wrote deep poetry and yet one other friend of Jeffrey's whom I did not know at the time pursued her passion to become a singer and not a dentist, her's is the music video above- I just checked my MYSPACE account after not doing so for many years and found this message dated December 14th, 2007.
Kris Kelli says:
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Dearest Kristie
I came home to JAmaica in Spetember 2001.. The month your brother ended his life. I am so sorry honey. I just watched this Video. He looks exactly like you. you could be a twin if you had been born the same time. Honey I know this is very dangerous ground for you and i know the fragility of your heart and mind . I am so sorry. I didnt think or or accept exactly what it is we have. I feel that Jeffrey came to us came to me .; that so many things and dates coincided to effect our being together that i cannot deny the truth that he brought us together. I love you Kristie. Im not a weak man. and neither was he. He gave up we dont know what he was thinking but he made that chose. I aùm being honest with you when i say i hold on because i fear the effect my ending my life would have on you. God knows i have enoughh reasons to end it. I dont wish to live wothout you hney and im asking you ...My ego is gone...im humbled and my head cut off.. i need you to once more revive me with your love. This time honey i will be perfect for you. i will understand youand us and what you mean to me. i will be exemplery. can you help. can you please realize that this had to happen ..;it had to run this course for me to complete the metamorphosis into the person i now am or i would be in limbo spiritually for ever. between a world of love and freedom and truth and a world of fear and deciet and anger. I am not nuts honey i am tryingto reach yu before it is too late. i dont want to leave you here in this world . I dont want to give up on us. or on this life. I am reaching out to you once more like Jeffrey did s man years before. please listen to me? please talk to me? please hear my soul Kristie ..Please I love you
Your spirit twin Craig. you dont have to kill me for me to change honey. I allready have.
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